I suppose an introduction is in order. I started this blog not to seek fame and fortune, but because I yearned for a place to indulge and share my inner world with those who think similarly. Let me correct myself- “think” is not entirely the correct word. For as hungry as I am for knowledge and facts, I’m also a very deep feeler. And when you combine thinking and feeling and throw it down any given rabbit hole, well, you get someone like me. I live primarily in my head, and don’t see anything wrong with that. Society says I should expend my energy outwards to the external world. But frankly, I don’t find much of that interesting at all and I really don’t mean that in an arrogant way. I guess I find most things to be painfully predictable, and what’s the fun in that?
I’m an INFP (Myers Briggs for: Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Prospecting) and I have inattentive ADD- I thought I should mention that right off the bat. But those are just labels, right? I’ve always known my thought processes and perspectives were worlds away from most people I’ve met. As a child I suspected my eyes were seeing something completely different, and that began my eternal quest to understand things through the eyes of everyone I came into contact with; it was easy once you picked up their patterns, and so entirely fascinating to figure them out. In many cases, I’d say I understood people far better than they understood themselves. It took me 28 years to realize just how differently my mind was wired. I wouldn’t trade it for anything, but of course there are pros and cons to everything. My specific struggles are based entirely around being a human in society. I know how vague that sounds. Things most people seem to do easily- having a daily schedule, meeting deadlines, organizing, small talk, setting priorities; these are the things I abhor and avoid, and they get me into trouble.
Was that an adequate introduction? I’m not sure. But I guess there really isn’t a standard “template” for such things. I could throw in some cheesy line “New posts every Friday!” but let’s be real. I have no guide-map, no agenda, and that’s just the way I like it. I refuse to calibrate your expectations with false promises, and it is my ultimate excitement to simply write and see where it takes me.
<3, Candice
